The one thing I'm glad of is the fact that moving to the xanga pretty eliminated any core of readers from this little corner of the world - though some, who didn't know of the xanga, or felt it was beneath them, have dropped off completely. I can post little tidbits of useless information on the xanga and things look decent enough. But it's not really a place I can candidly write in. Perhaps Joe will occasionally check this, or that handy function about when anyone last updated will lead him to this, but no one else really reads this, do they? Well, it's a dangerous assumption, but one I am fairly confident I can make at this point.
This is ridiculous... when college came the depression was deeper than those riidculous high school ones, but it didn't feel as 'sharp' as them. And so I went on, feeling that perhaps it would be okay like that; staving off depression through work. This worked for a time, but eventually the work itself became a contributor to this malaise.
I hate to contribute to the advancement of a term from 'genius catch-phrase' toward 'tired cliche,' but, well, the fact of the matter is... I've made a huge mistake. My choice of a school was too hastily made, my ambitions stunted. Yes, I remain in Chicago, and that is the only thing I'm thankful for, as it lets me stick together with old friends (most of whom are departing in one way or another soon enough) and I have the many wonders the city has to offer at my fingertips - or so I tell myself. I rarely have time to see friends or have little exploratory adventures, and so I end up spending most evenings in my room, working. I haven't played a computer game since college began, my only experiences with such a medium being the few games of Soul Calibur 2 and ten minutes of Katamari Damacy in Kyle's room. That amounts to perhaps an hour total of any sort of 'gaming' and it's in a medium I lack both interest and skills in.
This entry will be continued at a later time, as it is imperative that I study my chemistry so I can fail that exam tomorrow slightly less.